As a lot of you have already noticed, I set my blog to private. It was a spur of the moment kind of thing and I just really needed to think about some things.
The other day I came across a website. It's basically where a bunch of, I'm guessing, middle aged women get together and bash pretty much anyone and everyone who has any kind of a blog or Instagram account. There's a thread or forum on almost any blogger you've ever followed or come across and there just so happens to be one on me! I know! I was pretty shocked to find it. I mean with such a small following, I figured I'd be the last of anyone's wrath. But nope, even the smallest of the smalls get talked about there. I guess that's just how desperate they are for new material.
When I first started reading the comments, I was really upset and hurt. Like loss of appetite and nauseas kind of upset. Thinking about it now it's pretty comical how badly I let it get to me. When my husband got home I told him about it and told him how upset I was. So he went on there to see what on earth I was so hurt over. As he was reading he started laughing, which made me even more red in the face. Are you seriously laughing? He looked at me and asked if I was seriously upset at the comments made. Of course I am! And he laughed some more. He said he couldn't even believe I even gave a second thought about the things that were said. He couldn't believe I cared what strangers online were saying. "If you've got this many people talking about you, clicking on your blog, stalking your accounts, you're doing something right. There's no such thing as bad publicity." As I sat there and listened to him I started seeing what he saw. The mundane, petty comments, most of which were recycled from other forums of other bloggers and all of which were extremely predictable.
We both had a good laugh reading through the whole thread. I even laughed at myself from some of the extremely old posts they dug up and criticized. And I realized that there will always be critics (not that the people on this forum are any kind of real critic with any sort of credentials or value). If any of the points they were making we're actually valid, many of the bloggers they talk about would either have stopped blogging or would have changed their formats. But as most of you may know these top bloggers continue to blog and continue making money off of it. However, people will always find or make the time to be mean and with social media it's such easy access for these people to hide behind computers and say whatever they want with no consequences. What a life, right? If I'm being completely honest with you guys, I've been one of those girls, wayyyyy way back in high school and thank The Lord I grew up then and found confidence in myself and the true happiness in life because living with that kind of deep seated animosity is a heavy burden to carry through out ones self.
If I've learned anything from this it's that gossiping continues throughout life and there will always be petty people who hate what you're doing, who mock you and try to tear you down. Apparently there are even "top contributors" on this site who eat, sleep and breathe every little thing you put out there. But that comes with the use of social media and I get that. So I brushed off the silly things that were said and will continue to blog. Not only do I love blogging and connecting with other amazing moms and forming great relationships with you guys but blogging for me is my income. It's a job that I have designated hours set aside for. I feel so lucky I get to do something I enjoy while making money from it. So I guess all I can say to the people of those forums is thank you for keeping me in business and being supporting customers by clicking on my blog :)
And to everyone who emailed, asking what was going on, thank you! It meant the world to me to know there are decent people who follow my blog. I really appreciate and love you guys! You are the reason I want to continue to blog and the reason why it's enjoyable for me. I love hearing your opinions, your comments and your stories. I know I don't always comment back and I really try to, it's just sometimes Copeland has woke from his nap or wants to play and it's hard for me to respond. I hope you all can understand that. But I do read each comment and very much appreciate you. I'm sorry and feel so dumb that I even let something so stupid get to me haha. There has just been so much going on in my life lately which starts building up inside of you and just one small thing, no matter how extremely small and pointless it is, can bring everything kept inside up to the surface and release a lot of other emotions and thoughts.
I really went back and forth on posting this but wanted to let you guys know why I just changed everything to private without notice.