Oh man, the sexiness, or should I say lack there of, in motherhood.
It's a dirty, messy, full time job.
It's crawling on the floor, changing dirty diapers, food in your hair, leaking milk on your shirt kinda job.
It's the best! Really! It is.... But.... I miss my femininity.
It's been 7 months since having Copeland and I still feel so unsexy.
Like such a ... Mom.
Before I had Copeland and it was just Josh and I.
The two of us. I got ready everyday.
That was my hobby.
I loved makeup, hair products, clothes and being feminine.
It was fun for me.
I loved wearing cute bras and undies and having a great smokey eye with big bombshell hair.
I felt sexy and girly and like such a mrs. If that's a feeling :)
But now, it's harder to get that side of me to come out and play.
It's putting myself before my baby.
And that seems so selfish to do.
I'm putting that fun part of me away. Or hiding it.
So where is the balance?
Even on the days I go all out, and pass up doing the laundry
because I'd rather get dolled up for the husband.
It's hard to feel sexy when you're husband comes home to you sitting on the couch,
with a little babe attached to one of your boobs and and a big wet circle on your shirt
over the other. Because let's face it, wearing a normal, cute bra with a nursing babe
is just not happening. At least, not for me.
Maybe becoming a mother, you get a new kind of femininity.
But whatever it is, I just want to find it.
Maybe I'm just in desperate need of a cute nursing bra,
a flirty nighty and a good spray on tan.
All you mamas out there, how did you find your femininity again?
Did it ever go away for you?
Where's the balance in being who you are and being a mother?
Okay, I couldn't pass up putting one of my favorite songs on here, since it's so fitting :)