So my sweet momma friend over at XOMRSMEASOM is seriously the cutest in all the land
and if you're not following her, you're missing out!
She has a series of posts called Truthful Fridays and it's amazing!
To connect and read about how motherhood really is, not the glitter and confetti we put on Instagram everyday of how we all think it should be in our heads, but how messy and trying it can truly be at times.
Anyway, I know today isn't Friday but I'm feeling extremely truthful and well accomplished today :)
For the past 5 days now, Copeland has gone down consistently for 3 naps during the day. All lasting an average of 60-90 minutes!
I have never felt so accomplished.
I have been able to have a little bit of me time.
Whether I spend that time cleaning or watching funny YouTube videos.
It's the time I can take to do whatever I please and not feel guilty for leaving Copeland on his play mat.
Because truthfully, I do feel guilty when I can't spend every ounce of my attention on him.
Is that unhealthy?
According to my pediatrician yeah!
Haha but he's my number 1 priority right now.
He's 5 months old. He's completely dependent on me and I love that.
And when the time comes, I will teach him how to be independent but for now
he's my baby and I will spoil him with everything I've got.
Truthfully spending every ounce of everything I've got on him is trying.
Or, it is for me anyways (especially when he would not take a nap AT ALL throughout the day)
and so him going down for naps has been such a relief!
However, if I'm really being truthful I'll have to admit...
I always hear moms say "Oh that's his hungry cry."
"When he cries like this it's because he's just tired." and so on.
I honestly thought I must be a terrible mother because truthfully my kid's cries all sound the same!
I have no clue when he's hungry, when he's tired, when he's bored, when he wants to be held, etc. because of the way his cry sounds. The way I know is from the time.
"Oh it's been 2 hours, okay ya, he's hungry."
Honestly it took me until about a week ago to finally get on a real schedule.
I'm just now starting to understand what my baby needs.
Before when he was fussy after being up for more than two hours I just thought, he's a baby, he's fussy.
But now I realize, he's been up for two hours and he's exhausted.
We both were.
We both were.
It took me 5 whole months to figure that out!?
Yep and I feel so accomplished and on top of the world because of it :)
For me, my thought process was, "If he's tired, he'll fall asleep."
It took a while for me to get a routine going.
But now when I sing a certain song and rock him in his room, it's like he knows it's nap time
and he's out for the count.
I'm a new mom.
I have no idea what I'm doing sometimes but I know Copeland is okay with that
and we are both learning together what we need from this mommy baby relationship.
Now if only I could figure out how to get him to sleep through the night in his crib ;)
what do you have to be truthful about?
Is being a new mom as glamorous as we all see it to be on Instagram?